7/25/2002 10:13:59 AM|||Amy|||Last night I gave Lauren a bath, and John gave William a bath. At the end of the day these days, I too need baths. Every night when I am finally ready to fall into bed (which I literally do every night) I always feel so dirty, so covered in dried sweat.

This is the problem with living in Texas. The summers are always (and have always been) miserably hot. August is just around the corner, and that always seems to be the worst month. I can handle June and July, but August is a pisser. And the August heat doesn't ever really abate until mid-October which means September is also a drag. Poor little Lauren. She just misses the September 1 cut off to enroll in school, so now she will be the oldest kid in her class and she has a birthday during the stickiest time of the year. Just another reason for me to consider moving out of this hell hole.

I talked to John about moving, and he was very nay saying about it as expected. Although, I did get him to say that leaving the area could be a possibility in the future. Maybe in a couple of years - if we last that long. It bothers me how we completely forgot our wedding anniversary, even with everything that has been going on. I still wonder if that should be a sign. Lest I be misunderstood, I don't actually want us to split up. I'm just so tired of living like a college student, and having to deal with all the things attendent to massive debt and the aftermath of one partner's nervous breakdown.

So, today, I am going to clear my desk (if I can focus and stop fucking around) then spend a little time on the internet researching watchdog groups for governmental agencies which are generally staffed by morons and seem to have the soul objective of ruining people's lives at birth.|||79394842|||