7/5/2002 04:11:12 PM|||Amy|||So, I am sitting here at my desk on the fifth of July. Everyone else is gone - a fact for which I should be grateful since there is an hour and a half left in my usual work day, and I have loads of work to do. But, since everyone else is gone, all I want is to go too. I'd like to go see a movie, or go shopping! I am dying to go out and purchase some things for my little niece and nephew in Ireland. I have not done this (because, as always, my finances are in the toilet) and I want to do it. I've felt guilty or selfish or something for a long time for this, and even though I am sure my niece, nephew, sister-in-law and brother-in-law are not expecting me to reciprocate the generosity they've shown us - I still want to go out and spend a little cash on Laura and Jordan. Lauren and William need some new clothes too. Lauren especially. Lauren has one little sundress, and one shorts outfit which she can wear on excursions. The rest of her clothes are only good for keeping her in at home. I yearn to dress her like one might a baby doll - except with trendy girl baby clothes. I think this is the little bonus that comes with giving birth to a beautiful baby girl - the mother is allowed to loose all of her latent childhood fancies on to the baby and the baby cannot object. Not yet anyway. I think William was 2 when he started to assert his will over choices in clothing. I just hope Lauren doesn't say to me what my sister and I said to each other as we grew up, "Mom has absolutely no taste."|||78596179|||