7/17/2002 01:56:09 AM|||Amy|||Stress is such a bummer. Over the last several weeks, we had been finally adding some order to our lives. I actually felt more in control, and less in a free-fall. *But* I knew that it could all very easily fall apart (as things do - I need to post the words to Yeats' Second Coming. I will add this to my very long list of things to do!). So, now, the center is still holding, but the gyre is still widening and things are changing and I am emotional - can't sleep emotional. I stayed at work last night until 3am, so that I could spend today with Lauren. Tomorrow we are taking her to a new sitter and I'm feeling nervous. I think the new sitter will be fine, but I am worried about the stress this will cause Lauren.

Stress is interesting. I know that my current issue with it is caused by repressed anger and fear. You would think that at the first sign, I would make life changes - but in this situation, I feel powerless, almost helpless.

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