8/18/2002 01:29:54 AM|||Amy|||I am feeling horrible and remorseful. It may have something to do with the getting horribly drunk earlier. But I fear that I have made very many bad decisions in my life, and may have possibly hurt people I didn't want to hurt. I wish I could tell them that I'm sorry, and I wish I could take things back to the way they were before I did what I did. Truly, I am barely coherent. I want forgiveness, but it eludes me and will likely always be elusive.|||80382863|||