2/20/2003 10:29:01 AM|||Amy|||So much for good intentions. Everything has come crashing down... again. I'm so tired of being told that everything is going to be alright. It's not, because just as soon as I think that we've gotten past the rough patch finally - another one comes along, and it's much nastier than the one before. I had to take down all the pictures I have of my children at work because I can no longer bear to look at their beautiful little faces and think about how I am failing them. And before those of you who will read this start sending me emails about how I need to pull it together and start taking anti-depressants, just please don't. The problem that my family is having cannot be solved with medication. Nothing will be made better or easier to deal with in drugs.

I would just like to know what I have done to deserve the hell which keeps revisiting us. I am so tired of the struggle, and of being held its captive.|||89439600|||