6/1/2004 01:18:44 AM|||Amy|||I just spoke to him. He's on his way back from San Antonio. He said again that nothing has happened this weekend, i.e., he didn't sleep with her. I think that's probably bullshit. He lies well and with a great deal of ease. How can I believe anything he tells me?

I have been considering getting a pack of ciggys, and spending the next five hours until he gets home chain smoking on the back porch, but again - what good would that do? The holiday is over, I have to work in the morning.

I don't know how I feel. The marriage is over, I am worried about the future, I am worried about the kids and how they will handle a divorce.

I should sleep and put this agonizing on hold until tomorrow. Maybe once I get to work in the morning I will be able to renew in my mind all the reasons why the Big D is not only inevitable, but a darn good idea.|||10860710243010319|||End of Day 2