10/21/2004 06:46:25 PM|||Amy|||Like my sister, I am going to take a little time off from blogging.* My writing is disintegrating into a great big pile of words without structure. Grammar, basic rules, spelling seem to have fallen out of my usual set of skills and I'm really getting depressed. Or, rather, I'm depressed. Not actually getting there, as it seems that I've arrived, kicked off my shoes and settled in on the couch to stare blankly at the tv. It could be that I'm depressed because I didn't grow up to have the fairytale princess life that Barbie and Disney promised - or it could just be that I need to exercise more. Who knows? The point is that I need to take a break from this blog if only to escape the pressure of feeling weird if I don't update, and feeling weirder when I do and see that I am not having as much fun as I used to at playing with words and shaping narrative as if it were a block of really good clay with just the right level of moisture. (I once loved clay and doing things with clay, and I'm feeling a little nostalgic for clay right now - so please accept my apologies if the metaphor caused a retching reaction.)

I think I will still update with short journal entries about the kids because really - I meant this to be their story. I didn't mean to turn this into a diary of my dysfunction. I'm all out of steam though so hopefully it won't be like running a marathon when I can't even run a quarter of a mile to write something sometimes about my little cuddlebugs.

* My sister is taking time off because currently she's exploring the wilds of somewhere not San Francisco. She's really proud of her writing skills.
|||109840349990774994|||Taking Time Off10/25/2004 12:04:29 PM|||Judy The Great|||You really SHOULD give yourself a break. You do put too much pressure on yourself.

I hope you don't stop posting, I always enjoy your posts. I've never really seen this blog as being about your kids, but about you and about you having a place to vent and bitch when you need to. Remember, being a mom is the most important job you have, but it's not the sum of who you are - you're a fabulous interesting and funny woman. ;o)