3/16/2005 12:29:00 PM|||Amy|||This morning I watched a Mickey Mouse cartoon with Monkey in which Goofy told Mickey that he would pick him up at 6am sharp for something Mickey didn't want to do. Then, Goofy gave Mickey an alarm clock but the clock ticked too loudly and Mickey couldn't sleep. So, he packaged it up and mailed it to Goofy. Goofy immediately brought it back and said that Mickey must have mailed it to him by mistake and "see you at 6!" So Mickey mailed it to Australia and a kangaroo brought it back (instantly). Then he mailed it to somewhere else really far away and it came back just as quickly by a representative of that place. Finally, he packaged it up and wrote "Go To Hades" on the box. A devil, of course, brought it back.

It's sometimes hard to remember that cartoons are written by adults.

I have been drinking lots of water lately. I have this idea that all this water will improve my skin, hair and do wonderous things to my organs. It confuses me, though, that as soon as I swig back a half liter or quart or pint or whatever, I have to immediately pee. How could all this water be giving any benefit if it just filters through my kidneys faster than a speeding flood? Still, at least it's water finding love in my kidneys and bladder and not the horrible toxins of Diet Coke. After my pee test at the ob/gyn appointment I have for today, I am going to hit that Diet Coke. I have this perception that the Diet Coke is going to somehow affect the urine sample and cause the doctor to think that there might be something really wrong with me. I'm already overweight - I don't want to also be forced to deal with a Diabetes diagnosis or something.

That's the thing about Diabetes. I will probably be diagnosed with it at some point in my life (here's hoping that it's not today.... knock knock knock) but I know that I am fully capable of reducing my risk. Lose weight, stop eating things that are bad bad bad, drink plenty of fluids that are relatively free of chemicals and additives. Still. It takes mountains of pressure to motivate me.

I am excited about this appointment on one level. Today is the day that I will ask for prescriptions. Medicines that will allow me to engage in certain activities which other unmarried women, even those with three kids, sometimes get to do. I am also thinking about getting a prescription for anti-depressants but I don't know if I can be trusted to take them. That's a much trickier issue. I certainly don't want to get pregnant again any time soon, but I also don't want to deal with the initial adjustment of antidepressants. Speedy is only good sometimes - and antidepressants cause me to feel really, really speedy and nauseous. Do I really want that?

No.

I've already got a badge that says I've got a borderline personality. Still, that all wears off eventually I'm told - I just never got that far before.|||111099892259836936|||